I was flooded with a lot of thoughts from my past when I had a conversation with a couple of on Facebok earlier... For some apparent reason, I was suddenly missing my old social life and friends I really had a blast with... I was wishing I could reconnect and repair whatever the problem was and move on. But i know thats impossible to do, because some friends no longer either cant accept me for who I am or just simply gave up on me because of who I am... I cant help it being who I am, because I have been going through a lot of changes in the past 6 years and it has refined my personality more because I got to experience more of life, knowing who my friends are and who arent. I keep gaining more experience as life goes on and there are times i will have bits of depression or flashbacks. I cant help it but be sad how much my life has changed regarding the friends part.. Dont get me wrong, I am very much happier being married to the most amazing husband i ever had. With him, I got to grow and learn a lot more and really opened my eyes to the expereinces that my husband had to go through. Sometimes I wish people really open their minds and really understand who we are and really grow with us, gaining more patience and give a lot of encouragement. I would do the same to them. It really breaks my heart when a friend just suddenly decide to drop out of my life when i have helped that person a lot. Its never easy, friends just come and goes.. Some may pop back in your life and some just fade away like nothing happened.
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I know what you mean. The biggest pain in my life came when my best friend just left with no reason. We hadn't fought at all, she just quit talking to me. I don't regret being friends with her but sometimes I do because I miss her still. She now talks to me about once every few months.. still with no explanation of what or why. It's hard to let go of the past, but we should because there will be better friends in the future, the ones who understand and accept who you are right now. :)
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