Thoughts of the Day #2

I was flooded with a lot of thoughts from my past when I had a conversation with a couple of on Facebok earlier... For some apparent reason, I was suddenly missing my old social life and friends I really had a blast with... I was wishing I could reconnect and repair whatever the problem was and move on. But i know thats impossible to do, because some friends no longer either cant accept me for who I am or just simply gave up on me because of who I am... I cant help it being who I am, because I have been going through a lot of changes in the past 6 years and it has refined my personality more because I got to experience more of life, knowing who my friends are and who arent. I keep gaining more experience as life goes on and there are times i will have bits of depression or flashbacks. I cant help it but be sad how much my life has changed regarding the friends part.. Dont get me wrong, I am very much happier being married to the most amazing husband i ever had. With him, I got to grow and learn a lot more and really opened my eyes to the expereinces that my husband had to go through. Sometimes I wish people really open their minds and really understand who we are and really grow with us, gaining more patience and give a lot of encouragement. I would do the same to them. It really breaks my heart when a friend just suddenly decide to drop out of my life when i have helped that person a lot. Its never easy, friends just come and goes.. Some may pop back in your life and some just fade away like nothing happened.

Lost 6 pounds... how hell did that happen???

I was just enjoying my nice day off yesterday and I was thinking to myself ... have i lost any weight?? So I was really so curious so i went to my bathroom and pulled out the digital scale.. I got on it and was shocked that I actually lost 6 pounds.. It was 300.5 ... Go Figure... I just cant figure out what i did to lose 6 pounds???? All i know is that i been slowly removing myself from pop and other certain things... I been eating more meat, apples, and bunch of stuff and trying to watch what i eat and counting calories and such... Hmm... im curious to see if i can get myself to lose more.. if not then i know what im doing wrong lol!!!

My thoughts of the day #1

I will have more random thoughts ... here's one today.. As I was in the work meeting with our global imaging director, Todd Jensen, I was realizing how much thankful I am for my ability to be able to speak good most of the time. I am so thankful for my parents to decide whats the best thing for me when it comes to speech even though I stopped doing the speech therapy at age of 12 because I so really hated it. I am so grateful that I was raised orally instead of signing but i prefer doing both so can balance both hearing and deaf world...

Even though I'm shutting myself off from the deaf world due to bad experiences that has already lasted me a life time, I'm so glad I can continue both my ability to sign and speak with my husband.. I'm working on teaching him , even though I'm so bad at it. That's something I really need to work on... I also enjoy the feeling of being the only deaf person working at The Generations Network, because I dont have to worry about any deaf person causing gossip or drama at work like what i was experiencing a brief time working for Sorenson as a second job. I can be able to work in peace and be able to prove myself and be able to advance to any positions that i might be eligible for, or expand more experiences or skills that i can do.. My husband is continually expanding his skills which is more valuable at work and hes SO good at what he does.. i hope he can be able to advance more in the company and still enjoy what he does... I'm really happy for him.. I just hope i can do the same.

Damon's Halo 3 Xbox 360

Video Excerpts from Damon's Halo 3 xbox game... Shot 2 players at the same time with one bullet... Amazing!

A Crazy Day....

Ugh.. Cant my life be anymore complicated than it is right now??? I had my Dr appt this morning at 9:45am.. It did not turn out so good and I expected this to happen, since i wasn't doing my part at all... My blood sugar level dropped a tiny bit but still high.. My Dr reprimanded me about my medication because I was honest with her that I didn't take the medication as I was supposed to.. Thyroid levels very good.. My weight, unfortunately went up at 306 from 304 from the previous visit.. She was NOT happy with me about it.. So her Dr orders to me was that I start counting calories and told me to go to calorieking.com for check calories and want me to get out and exercise more or find something at home that I can do more with. I guess I might have to hold off on the pregnancy thing until i lose some weight.. I can't see the future for my health is right now.

Ah... I had my other doctor's appt.. It went really well except it was with a different nurse practitioner.. she is a really sweet lady and understands the struggles im going through... Talked to her about my period problem.. She said need to keep consistent with my metformin ( blood sugar med) and provera and it will work out in order for me to get my regular menstruation periods... Also will help with losing weight as well... I also found out i was a little bit constipated so she said i really need more fiber in my diet. I will be meeting with her every Tuesday for weigh in and food journal so can adjust what i can eat and what i do not need and what excerise i can do at home more ... I will have the opportunity to get pregnant once i know im able to lose weight like im really supposed to. Eh!

Feel free to comment if you want or any advice or get me out more HAHA... Well have a great day.. Love Yall!

Festival of Trees puzzle...

It was fun doing this 500 piece puzzle... Took us like 5 to 9 hours to actually finish.. Damon started the puzzle out for all end pieces and i ended up finishing it... we are going to glue to to a cardboard and get it framed... i so love that pic!!! Its a Festival of Trees in outdoors.. I miss going to Festival of Trees in Salt Lake... I hope I get to go to one next year.. It has been a long time since i went.. I used to go there every year with my elementary class til we stopped going .. Also went with my family before as well...