Happy Thanksgiving!

Just wanted to write a little post to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving! My mother in law Cathy is here to spend time with us for Thanksgiving...  WE all went to have thanksgiving dinner at Grama Billings' house. It was SO GOOD!!!!  Hope you all had a good thanksgiving and have a great safe weekend!

Halloween Pictures from Cornmaze Oct 15, 2011

I went to the corn maze at Thanksgiving Point  with my sisters Misty and Codi and Cod's hubby Brian. It was a blast! I loved it.. I was so sore walking in the cornmaze... Brian was the navigator since we had a copy of the map for cornmaze. We just followed him! Then we each took pics pretending that we were in the stocks.. We walked around and there was this beautiful display of pumpkins like a pumpkin tree.. I took like a ton of pictures of the pumpkins.. My favorite one was the sleeping beauty one.



Halloween Videos

Damon and I carved pumpkins at my parents' house.. It was fun since we had dinner and carved pumpkins. I had really good time!



Haircut from July 2011

I decided to get my haircut since my hair was soo long so decided to cut it back to shoulder length with lot of layers. I did feel a lot better and since then to now it has made my hair easier to manage-- I can put in ponytail or leave it straight or curly.. I like to have it curly naturally a lot with mousse on or none at all.

Coming Soon... More new blogging to come...

Wow, after going through my blog posts recently, Im definitely going to blog more what has been happening since i last blogged. That is to come soon maybe tomorrow or so . Just need to make the time to gather my thoughts and etc. Will have a lot of things to say what has been happening that has been small bursts of blessings and gratitiude.

Watch for it!

Melanie

Thoughts on Season 11 Biggest Loser Finale and Summer....

I totally cheered for my favorite, Olivia Ward on season 11's Biggest Loser finale and she won!!!! She is my inspiration mostly, because she has the same condition as I do, PCOS.... She was told that she wouldnt have kids, unless she lost weight. She's 34 years old and has PROVED anyone can lose the weight especially with the PCOS condition. I hope I can be like her and aspire for a better life for myself.

Summer is pretty much here, now that I dont have the show to watch for a long time til September... Now is pretty much the time is to dedicate my focus on my well being and aspire to lose weight. I just hope i can do it with some help from people around me that i TRUST and love the most-- my husband and my family.

Thats all  can SAY.. will try update more as im slowly working on my weight loss.

Sweat, Sore, a little bit of Tears?

I finally did workout today, but Damon did it with me and it lasted 30 minutes than what I usually do for 15 mins... Did Wii Sports for 5 to 10 mins, then did the EA Active that which I have not done in five months. That's a long time!!!! It feels good to do a workout and I need to continue this if i want to get rid of my back pain and be less sore. Just wanted to share this:

Dreaming and Facing Reality.......

This image just makes me feel like I'm walking in a dream sometimes. Because the goals I've made in the last blog, they are just dream goals... The reality of it now, I have not done a single thing at all, but I have the MOST AMAZING hubby that does it all for me. He cleans, cooks and does the laundry all while hes struggling with finding work. I don't know how I could have survived with out him!

I was excited to get the second job at Shelf Reliance, but turns out that I was too overconfident with myself. Yesterday, was the first day of the second job. I went into it thinking okay i can do this and can handle it. Two hours into the 10 hour shift, I was really in horrible pain on the side of my back and I did take many 10 minute breaks as I could to relieve the pain. Each time it goes away it comes back two to three times worse. I came home with really horrible headache and was in so much pain that i barely slept maybe two to three hours. I got up this morning going to my morning job but still dealt with the pain. I made the decision not to go forward with the job because I know my body at this point and do not want get hurt any more than it is right now. I need to take my body to a safer way to lose weight and I realized that this job was not the right way to do it.

I have applied for two jobs, which one is Damon's old archiving position that is full time that i wanted to try for and other one is part time for footnote that is owned by Ancestry.com. Also I contacted Shelf Reliance and talked to one of the human resource people and came clean about yesterday. He was really nice and told me not to come in for the shift and told me to call him back tomorrow because Ive asked if i could get part time or something else that i can do that does not strain my body as bad it was yesterday. So we see what happens.

Ever since that scary moment with my pain issues from yesterday it made me realize that I need to take better care of myself and cant do anymore excuses for it or putting it off. I have to make a commitment or it would just get more worse before it can get better. I just want to say thank you to those that I love --my family and some friends because THEY have tried to help me to deal with my weight issue and I just flat out did not want the help. I admit, I do need the help and the push to do it, whether I want to or not.

Nearly Spring time.....

Wow its nearly spring time.. .cant wait for winter to finally be over so i can wear flip flops again.... Just a little note to say that we are doing okay and trying to stay positive with everything that's going on lately... I need to restart living my life again of just sitting around and going to work...  My dream goals that I am either working on or strive to reach by next year or two:


1. Lose weight and really work on exercising better and be consistent with eating right. I would like to lose about close to 150 to 200 pounds, since i am at about around 320 give or take.


2. Go on vacation to Disneyland, California Adventure, Disney world and Harry Potter Universal Studios theme park with my hubby.... Just need to start saving up the money when things are better for us financially and stable with jobs for both of us and out of debt (hopefully!)...


3. After i have lost the weight that i needed-- If i have insurance by then, I would go see Dr and start the process of trying to get pregnant. I want to have kids by the time i reach 35 or less...


Smaller goals that I am really working on right now:


1. Clean my house better.. Do one or two rooms a day. Vacuum everyday. Do dishes after meal.. Do laundry every week ( which I'm very good at anyways.)  Clean bathrooms better and keep it clean that way by doing it twice a week.


2. Take Mandi (my dog) for walks after work everyday.


3. Read more books instead of watching so much TV all the time only few certain shows that i like...


Sigh that's about what i want to work on... Man i cant believe April is here already and my sister's bridal shower is this Saturday.. Crazy!!! i have to make the homemade pretzels for the shower..  Can't believe that shes getting married at the end of this month...  Just one more sister left who isn't married but I'm glad that shes back home from her mission even if all of my sisters drive me nuts at the moment but I love them anyways.. They are my crazy family that is always going to be around forever and eternally... That reminds me of another personal goal that I'm quietly working on my own without any one's interference at the moment and someday to be fully in circle with my family for eternity.

Melanie

Congratulations Codi!

Just wanted to blog this and say Congratulations to my sister Codi and Brian for their engagement. I don't know all the details, all i know is that she got engaged last night while i was asleep and checked the text message when I woke up at 11pm to get ready for work at midnight! YAYAY!!!!! Now Damon and I have two reasons to work on our weight loss -- Misty's homecoming in few months and Codi's wedding (which I don't know when yet)... :)

Wow! Behind in Blogging.. and Its a New YEAR!

Wow the time sure has flown by since I last blogged. Let's see what has happened in the last few months...

November-- It was a pretty good month... I went to St. George with my best friend JaMay to her sister JeNeal's wedding. It was a blast and I'm glad JaMay enjoyed her time being with her family.  Damon turned 30 on November 13th. We got to see Harry Potter Part 1 the week after it came out on November 17 and enjoyed eating out at Red Robin.

December--- I had orginally planned to do a Christmas Letter, but so many things has happened that I felt it just wasnt right timing to do one. I will do one next year when things are offically better.  My husband lost his job on the 14th which was soo close to Christmas and we were devasted. But things got better as I got a lot of things worked out with mortgage and etc so things were definely looking up but I know it will be tough for a while, but I know we can make it.  I have been working a lot of over time hours Dec 17th to 30th. Mostly 8 hours, but i did like 12 hours which it has helped some.  We hope that now the new year is here we hope to start off the new year with a bang is that Damon gets a job soon but it takes a lot of faith and positivity. For now im working hard for us, making sure I dont miss work and etc.

Our goals for the New Year is:

 Start up on losing weight and watch what we eat

 Getting out of debt starting with one or two loans at a time.

Save money for things we could use instead of using credit card or loans like new tvs or couches -- only get a loan for a better new car.