Man I havent blogged for a while since a month or so. I've got a lot of things on my mind and theres so many things going on. There's been some good and bad.. The bad thing is we have to pay taxes and no refunds. It sucks big time. The good thing is I've reconnected with a friend and its been a fun ride so far. She helped me with getting shoes for my sister's upcoming wedding which is on March 19th. That is coming up so fast just in two weeks.. I've also received a homemade beautiful bag and Damon got a homemade wallet from my sister Misty who is currently on mission in Guatemala. I will post a pic of shoes that i bought and a pic of the bag and the wallet later.
Damon and I are still wrestling with decision about going to Bountiful just to be there for Jamie and Tyler when they are getting married in Bountiful temple and have wedding luncheon afterwards.. We will of course be there at reception which we dont have a problem with. One thing about me and Damon is that both of us are married civilly and did not get married in the temple. We love both of our families but they need to respect our decision of civil marriage at that point which im not going to say any more. The only reason we are having a hard time decision because of our need to work in order to keep up with bills and maintain our home. IDamon works full time and has a lot of responsibilies and he has to be there all the time in order to keep things moving. Right now he doesnt have any PTO so we cant afford to miss work and plus im part time and cant afford to take off more work because I've been missing a day almost every week which I really need to stop doing. I never knew that owning a house is a lot of responsbility but that is part of being married is to have a life that we want to live. Right now I dont feel like I'm living the active life the way i want it to be right now because Im not doing anything thats healthywise and etc. Looking over my blog posts from a year ago, i realized that im not setting my goals and achieving them like I keep saying i would do. I feel like I've really failed for the first time in my life because I cant do anything right in order to lose weight and really be happy. I sometimes get envious of others that already have the life that i want -- a family of my own, be healthy and more active, get out and see the world for what it really it is.
I guess Im not the same person that everyone knew me to be in the past -- more active, more outgoing and etc. I do know that one thing that is still same about me is my desire to help others. I find that I have compassion for others whos in a little different situation that me and it hurts me sometimes to see that but i know the feeling because i was in the same position when i was first married. I know that the first couple of years of being married can be rough but its good to learn and grow from that experience. Thats about it. Have a great week.
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